User:BP2004
| Name: | Bran |
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| Age: | 21 |
| Birthdate: | 5 March 2004 |
| Pronouns: | he/him |
| Gender: | demiboy |
| Orientation: | femsexual |
| Attraction: | (questioning) aesthetisexual & demiromanticspike |
| Presentation: | androgynous, casual, alternative, emo, demifemboy |
| Personality type(s): | ISFP-T, 9w1, Pisces, Monkey |
| Neurotype: | autistic, maybe ADD |
| Mental health: | social anxiety & depression |
| Country: | Australia |
| Heritage: | English & German |
| Language: | English; learning Danish & Japanese |
| Occupation: | music producer, unemployed (looking) |
| Hobbies: | underground music, youtube, games, collecting CDs & records, coding, manga + anime |
hii, welcome to my profile! I'm Bran or BP :)
☆💛🤍💜🖤☆🖤💙🤍💙🖤☆💗💜💙☆
About me
I'm a 21 year old demiboy & music producer from Australia. My 16 personality type is ISFP-T, and my Objective Personality type is prob an Si/Fi [ISTJ jumper] with SC/P(B) but I'm taking an indefinite break from trying to figure all that stuff out haha. My zodiacs are Pisces & Monkey, am neurodivergent (autistic + maybe ADD), and have social anxiety + depression. Also I'm a night owl (always awake tbh, and asleep too lol :p)
My main interests & hobbies highly involve music, I'm a huge 140 dubstep & grime enthusiast and of 2000's underground UK bass scenes in general, I love learning & teaching a little about these genre's history and showcasing different sides of them, which can especially be seen on my RateYourMusic page with dedicated lists such as Dubstep: The Early Years (1994-2006), Must-Listen Dubstep + Instrumental Grime and Tearout Dubstep Albums, Beautiful Bassweight and Oldskool Wubz.
Producing music is another greatest passion of mine, though a career path I hope to someday achieve, it's continued to solely be a personal outlet for myself to put down ideas & feelings into melodies & synths since I was 11-14 years old. Though my style is quite minimalistic, I feel deeply to my compositions and also find it more introspective that way, being simplistic yet either chill & relaxing or dark and subtly atmospheric. Since using FL Studio in 2018 I have so far released 15+ albums & mixtapes, making a total of over 350 tracks. If you'd kindly like to give my music a try I post to Youtube, Bandcamp, and hopefully spotify in the near future.
Lastly my other hobbies are watching youtube/twitch (Penguinz0, Maya Higa, Cyr, Fanfan, Inneshx, Pewdiepie, ExtraEmily, Emiru, JaidenAnimations, Joel Haver, YTPs), playing games like Roblox (esp Jailbreak), Minecraft, ps2 & wii; occasionally read manga & watch anime (top 3: Death Note, 3-gatsu no Lion, Horimiya); and fun fact I love all animals but cats, dogs, bunnies, seals, donkeys, & snakes are my favs hehe.
Identity & Definitions
I am a nonbinary guy (amab), specifically a Demiboy, and my pronouns are he/they. My orientation falls under Bisexual/Biromantic, in particular Femsexual; and I'm still questioning this but I think the way I experience attraction is through Aesthetisexual and Demiromantic/spike.
Btw if you'd like to read more on my pronouns/preferences I have a pronouns page (pls note I'm pretty chill with whatever you call me like irdc that much, the page is just for fun and if you'd like to know my preferences, so don't feel forced to change your vocab or double check when talking like trust me its fine :)
though I will just say my fav way of being referred to is not at all (jk)
Gender: Demiboy
The Demigender identity is within the Non-Binary umbrella.
Demiboys are partially, but not fully, a boy, man or otherwise not fully masculine. They may or may not identify as another gender in addition to being partially a boy. The other part of one's gender can be any gender or combination of genders, including a lack of gender.
This is chosen as my specific gender identities, which I'm honestly fine with either seeming they're very similar, just slightly variant and either more specific or broad. The reason I feel these fit me is solely the main reason I even began this journey at the end of 2023, when I felt depressed & stuck trying to become a grown man & finally felt a reconnection to my softer & shy side after learning about femboys, embracing who I really am. Around Sep 2024 was when I started using 'male/nb' terms publicly online since I felt a mix between a guy & nonbinary, and finally in May 2025 I learnt of demiboy / demienboy which fit me perfectlyy :D
If I had to connect any identity to majority of my life it would definitely be some variant of demiboy, and having this label makes me more myself and comfortable in trying more androgynous or feminine things without feeling as judged, and feel free from societal norms and even my own standpoints of what a 'man' is and how I should be.
Orientation: Femsexual
In a general understanding, this can be categorized as some kind of form of Bisexual or Pansexual.
Femsexual is sexual orientation describing someone who is exclusively attracted to individuals with feminine genders or feminine presentations regardless of gender identity. It mainly refers to attraction towards feminine girls, boys, & nonbinary individuals, as mentioned in the meanings of the 2nd flag.
From primary school my main orientation has been straight; I don't think I was ever conscious of liking boys, maybe since it wasn't normalised and the ones I did like I wasn't close with (which being demiromantic I didn't develop real feelings towards them), as well as my dad's queerphobic beliefs based on christianity, which I never agreed with but being a child it does kinda stay in your head esp with how often it seemed he'd randomly bring it up for no reason; but I did occasionally find a couple boys attractive and liked to admire them, especially those with some kind of feminine characteristic.
Since being exposed to femboys at the turn of 2024, not only have they inspired me in small ways but I also found them attractive, and after knowing about the femsexual term for a while, May 2025 was when I started identifying as it once I was fully sure of my bisexuality, since I used to think I was straight and then heteroflexible.
Attraction (questioning): Aesthetisexual & Demiromanticspike
These are A-Spec labels which helps describe how one experiences attraction.
Aesthetisexual is an identity on the asexual spectrum in which one only develops sexual attraction after aesthetic attraction is felt first. This doesn't mean aesthetic attraction always leads to sexual attraction, it just comes first and may or may not develop further.
Demiromantic is a romantic orientation on the aromantic spectrum defined as someone who does not experience romantic attraction until they have formed a deep emotional connection with someone. This connection may be sexual, platonic, or another form/combination of forms, depending on the demiromantic individual. Forming an emotional bond with someone does not mean that one is automatically attracted to said individual, as it just means there's now a possibility for one to feel attraction. And so Demiromanticspike is a sub-term for someone who is generally the above, but does occasionally experience rare romantic attraction without that emotional connection.
I'm still questioning these, but from my understanding I feel like aesthetic attraction on its own is something I quite often platonically experience, and get inspired by something in their appearances, whether it's hairstyle, clothing, accessories, or the way they present themselves. In terms of relationships from age 10 I've always been someone who wants to feel strong connection to someone and usually had some level of a crush, but I've never rly felt that looking to actually date or anything is something obligated to do if I haven't already gained a strong connection or at least some decent familiarity of/with overtime.
July 2025 was when I discovered these terms, realising I'm aesthetisexual since all my crushes ever have stemmed from their aesthetic, and then feelings may develop later on once I feel safe & familiar with them more because of being demiromantic/spike, hence why for me I think these 2 identities work together.
Why I relate to being nonbinary / demiboy
(Growing into adulthood & re-finding myself)
As I was reaching my final year(s) of highschool, being back on the older side again for the last time in grade 12, I felt compelled to start growing into a man during those 2 senior years. I started having my hair cut a bit shorter, had just a stubble, regularly cut my nails, tried embracing my masculinity, and at first I thought I was doing okay, but I put way too much pressure on myself with this change as well as feeling super lonely, and my anxiety quickly took over during one of the worst 4 months of my life where I stopped going to school and barely even left the house. This masc expectation I felt I needed to follow only depressed me even further, and for the first time I actually hated how shy I was, the way people infantilized me when speaking to me, when before those were things I did like and found cute (by certain ppl at least) and I used to accept that's just who I was.
Once I slowly returned to school I did start making small connections with a couple ppl, fairly regularly quietly joining in with a group of girls, however it made me feel I had to keep trying to be more of a man, so I tried balancing it out with having my hair longer again but also grew back my beard to the point I actual just looked like a homeless caveman lol, and those friendships faded by the beginning of my 2nd senior year, so feeling I had lost them or done something wrong made me absent from school for 1-2 months once more. It was a very conflicting and confusing time for me, for the rest of the year I tried shutting out a lot of my emotions since I knew I couldn't do anything to solve them but did go back to maintaining my looks again.
In the December of finishing highschool at age 19, I've since been taking time to explore my identity since I was intrigued by discovering the normalisation of like softer guys & femboys, which being super naturally shy my whole life I felt connected to some of the aesthetics and realised how much I hate the stereotype around men that I had felt forced to become for the previous 2 years; I genuinely didn't feel like I fitted in with other guys and I couldn't handle dealing with this social stigma anymore. Learning about certain labels enlightened me and I felt I really was rediscovering myself, and relearnt to be content with myself again, focusing on myself over craving friendship & connection, and being grateful for what & who I do have.
Over the past 2 years whilst taking a break from everything I've gotten a better vision of how I want to present myself, which I was too overwhelmed by the thought of during a lot of late highschool to fully grasp and maintain properly. I've let my hair grow out a little more and take better care and even cut it myself now (going to the hairdressers is actual so stressful bro I meltdown afterwards evry single time, last time was in Nov 2023) and have been shaving my face regularly as well as my body, something I honestly didn't realise I had this control over until mid 2024, now I don't need to be embarrassed of my werewolf legs xd, have long nails again, and can wear things like womens jeans, short shorts, use eyebrow pens, light eyeliner, etc.
Discovering and relating to variants of nonbinary, and identifying as a demiboy is so freeing to me, allowing me to feel more myself and comfortable trying these androgynous or feminine things without feeling the shame or guilt that comes with being a 'man', even if I'm still not fully confident in everything I want to try and still prefer dark casual clothing. It's just fun and helps me understand myself more.
But yeah, maybe it's easy for me to talk about all this since the only friends I rly have are pretty much just online anyway, and I personally don't mind nor feel the need to tell outside family even if I know they'd likely be understanding, and I don't view this as an identity change but rather just that I've found the right labels that imo are representative of throughout my life and esp the last while, and also since I'm fine still being referred to as a guy (but pls not a man tho haha). Plus I'm super lucky to have a supportive sister who I can talk about these things casually, openly and discuss or understand and joke whenever <3
Sometimes I wish I knew about all these terms and stuff earlier (esp in year 10-11 when I really liked oversized hoodies, skinny jeans, and was inspired by fem hairstyles, avatars, etc), so that way I would've accepted me for who I was way sooner and maybe wouldn't have had such a difficult experience trying to become someone I'm not, and be more comfortable with things if I started this when I was younger. But at least because I went through that I really do know what I am not, and can continue to work on and improve myself forward without wondering what if.
ik my story is nothing crazy at all and ik it's different for everyone but ig a reminder that whatever your journey is it's never too late and it is okay to go through ups n downs in discovering yourself and take your time to process things, and you shouldn't hide yourself but also don't feel compelled to tell anyone until you're ready, which will all come naturally over time, and coming out doesn't need to be a huge deal if you don't want it to be, maybe that's contradictory with the fact I'm writing all this lmao but it's not out of feeling bound to, it's just simply casually for myself because I enjoy talking about it plus these are lesser known terms, and just for anyone who may be interested to read
Extras: flags, calendar, links
Flags (each ordered by gender > orientation > attraction)
- Femmesexual flag redesign.png
- Aestheticsexual.png
Pride calendar
| Flag | Date | Name | Description |
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March 1-31 | Bisexual Health Awareness Month | Raises awareness for bi, pan, fluid & queer community wellbeing |
| April 2-/30 | Autism Awareness Day/Month | Raises awareness for autism | |
| April 25 | Genderqueer Visibility Day | Celebrating individuals who identify outside of the binary gender | |
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June 1-30 | Pride Month | Raises awareness for the whole LGBT+ community |
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June 22 | Demiboy Pride Day | Raises awareness for demiboys |
| July 1-31 | Disability Pride Month | ||
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July 13-19 | Nonbinary Awareness Week | |
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July 14 | International Nonbinary People's Day | |
| August 29 (last Friday in Aug) | Wear It Purple Day | ||
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September 16-22 | Bisexual Awareness Week | |
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September 23 | Celebrate Bisexuality Day | |
| December 3 | Freedressing Awareness Day | Promoting freedom of gender expression & nonconforming individuals | |
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December 15 | Demigender Awareness Day | Raises awareness about demigenders |
Personal progress
| Flag | Date | Name | Description |
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| late December 2023 | Began identity journey | I felt stuck trying to become a grown man & finally felt a reconnection to my softer side, embracing who I really am | |
| April-May 2024 | Realised I have control | I realised I dont have to be embarrassed of my body, I dont needa have werewolf legs anymore lol & can tone myself | |
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~September 2024 | Started identifying as 'male/nb' | I started using male/nb terms publicly online since I felt a mix between a guy & nonbinary |
| 8 March 2025 | First time cutting my own hair | going to the hairdressers is always so stressful and I have a meltdown afterwards everytime lol; and so it had been 1.5 years since I last had it cut, and after procrastinating getting booked I just decided im gonna do it myself, and it was like the best decision of my life lol. it might not be perfect but doesnt have to be, Im just glad to be at peace with it and can fulfil the vision myself now | |
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26 May 2025 | Realised I'm a demiboy | I had been using the 'male/nb' term for awhile & finally learnt of demiboy / demienboy which fit me perfectlyy :) |
| 28 May 2025 | Realised I'm femsexual | I also started identifying as femsexual, I knew about the term for like a year but wanted to be sure of my bisexuality (heteroflexibility at the time) | |
| 25 June 2025 | First time buying womens clothing | ordered some baggy-ish jeans & jacket from temu hehe, they're actual just way nicer to wear | |
| 16 July 2025 | Started relating to aesthetisexual | discovering this term I realised all my crushes ever have stemmed from their aesthetic, then feelings develop after | |
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16 July 2025 | Started relating to demiromantic | I also realised I'm probably demiromantic since I only gain feelings for someone once I feel safe & familiar with them more |
| 21 July 2025 | First time using eyebrow pen | brought my first makeup items in from temu lol, eyebrow & eyeliner pens; i love long brows and mine are too far apart haha so I thought I should give it a try, even if I dont make them too close :p | |
| 20 August 2025 | "came out" online | i dislike this term but this was when I first made this wiki and shared my experience with why i relate to all these things, after having male/nb & demienboy in my bio for the past year | |
| 27 August 2025 | Realised I might be demifemboy | discovering femboys was what made me embrace my softer side in the first place, so they inspire me and can relate sometimes, and finding this term was fun since it can mean both demiboy & demifeminine; I'm just unsure still if it actually fits me or not since I act & dress casually + androgynously, but so do some femboys so idk | |
| 18 November 2025 | Started wearing eyeliner | I felt like trying a fuller look just for fun & it turned out okie! i only put a subtle line in public for now tho hehe | |
| 23 January 2026 | First time trying concealer | i brought & tried my first concealer, got 2 colours just incase and its just right :p |
| My links |
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Pronouns page: https://en.pronouns.page/@BP2004 Original Wiki: https://lgbtqia.wiki/wiki/User:BP2004 SpaceHey: https://spacehey.com/bp2004 RateYourMusic: https://rateyourmusic.com/~BP2004 AlbumOfTheYear: https://albumoftheyear.org/user/bp2004 MyAnimeList: https://myanimelist.net/profile/BP2004 GoodReads: https://goodreads.com/bp2004 Youtube: https://youtube.com/@BP140Dubz |
[original page created on 15 Aug 2025, new on 29 Jan 2026, last updated on 1 Feb 2026]
